MaternityShare

Man am I tired today. And I have a headache. I believe that I am not so desirable company today and my in-laws are in town. I want to be happy and entertaining but I can’t keep it up, my jolly attitude keeps derailing itself like a gutter-ball. I usually get in some morning nap time with Will to help refresh myself but I haven’t been able to lately. Add to that the fact that I keep going to bed late because I want to hang out with the grown ups and I can see why I feel so crummy. I think Will is going through a growth spurt as well so I imagine that that puts more demand on my body.

Will hasn’t been getting enough good sleep either, or rather it is taking him longer to get to it, the good sleep that is.

All this being said, it is great to have the in-laws here. Will gets to bond with them and they get to bond with Will. Good stuff. And they are real nice people to boot. So, really, I am lucky.

I am feeling grateful.

Tomorrow Will will be 6 weeks old. I gave birth 6 weeks ago. Wow.

I am still dealing with the “Postpartum Blues”. Its hard to describe to someone what is it like to be experiencing this.

The breastfeeding is going ok but it seems like Will is hungry all the time. I think this is natural and ok. He is gaining weight and has enough pee and poo in a day so all signs point to things going well according to the experts. Its just that when he takes a bottle he is out cold and for longer. Billy and I debate over these issues quite a bit. I have been thinking of what I can do to make things work for every one. I am still mulling it over. I am frustrated and trying not to feel inadequate. My pump is driving me a bit crazy lately. I hate that I can’t get caught up on sleep. This is partly due to the fact that I am breast feeding at every meal, or at least trying. I’m going to go to a lactation support group on Tuesday again to see if I can get help.

Well, here I go to bed, I need that sleep.

Tomorrow is a new day. I pray that it will be easier.