MaternityShare

I have been so grumpy lately. My son is almost two and I haven’t had a regular or full time job since I was put on bed rest two months before he was born. I feel the stress of responsibility to get a job to bring in money for the family. I look for work from time to time but there is so much competition out there and I doubt my resume top tier material.

I still don’t get enough sleep, I don’t eat right, I barely exercise, I see my skin aging, my back pain and posture are getting worse.

I forgot how to take care of me. First and foremost, I keep worrying about my son and how he is doing. Well… that’s enough grumping… I could grump some more for sure but why dwell there?

Grumpy mom, look on the bright side…

1) I started a work out program at my local gym with my membership that I have been paying for but not using. I got sick of paying the $12 every month and getting nothing from it but a sense of guilt at just throwing that money away every month for years now. The work out drained me and I felt tired and wobbly but I also felt great. I had a new energy that had not been there before. It sustained me for two days! Now I need to get back. 2-3 days a week.

2) Will is adjusting to day care and thriving! He gets social time and learns new things in a new environment. And, I get some time to work on my social media projects, work out, look for work, blog, read and respond to emails.

3) I started planning the bellydance class I have long wanted to teach. I need to share this talent I have. I need to share this life changing dance. I have been hesitant to do it for several reasons. Screw those reasons. I’m going to do it. Beginning bellydance class coming soon in Alameda. Soon, I will offer workshops and private parties.

4) We found a house to rent. One where we share no walls with neighbors. It has a yard with room for Will to play, have a water table, a sandbox, and a garden. It is farther away from SF then I would like but its not that far. It has everything we put on our basic wish list.

There, four things I can appreciate.

So, grumpy mom… are you taking care of you? You need to take care of you to take care of those around you. If you take care of you the people around you will appreciate it. Don’t forget. Do it now.

Julia opened her house for peeps to gather to say hi to me and Will on Thursday, May 14th, Will’s 10 month birthday. After everyone had left, except Jenny, Julia popped on her music set for the following night and started getting her groove on. Will started rocking out with her in his little head banging arm swinging way. Then, wham! The two of them joined forces and danced their hearts out. It was beautiful. Here is a pic. Video to follow… you wont want to miss that! Will squeals and laughs in delight!

We love you auntie Julia!

Today is my dear friend Nicole’s birthday. So dedicated to dancing is she that she is spending her birthday evening dancing at a gig. She is a beautiful dancer who I have the the pleasure of dancing with for many years when I lived in Portland. We have performed together quite a bit. (I looked all over for a picture of us dancing together in our more usual costuming but am sad to say that I could not find one! The picture here is of us backstage at The Fez Ballroom of a special one-time themed performance.)

I miss dancing. I attempted some belly rolls today. (Unfortunately I contracted soon after.) It feels strange having not done it much for a while and now being so big. It is pretty cool (and odd) to watch the pregnant belly belly-rolling. I had hoped to pick up dancing again while I am pregnant. So far, that is not going to happen. But who knows, if I make it to 39 or 40 weeks or so, perhaps I will give it another go.

Dancing is a beautiful thing, especially belly dancing. If you are in Portland, go check out Nicole’s classes and performances. She is very passionate about dancing both in performance and as an instructor.

Check out her website www.severina.us