You can’t see this live anymore but you can watch reruns of it on Current TV on cable. You can see the site where it was aired live online but what you will find there is discussion only now. But, check it out: http://current.com/topics/88834922_hack_the_debate

This is hard to do because I have trouble managing my days when i have one thing scheduled … I even have a hard time getting out for a walk on days where I have nothing scheduled like today) man my cabin fever is on. When I stay home all day without getting out I feel terrible. Will is always needing something or if he isn’t then I need to eat or nap. Excuses excuses. I just don’t understand it. I have a friend who just had twins. She seems amazing, happy, balanced. Perhaps I don’t know the full picture. Anyway, I am to be amazing and I feel like I have a long way to go. But I do know that I give Will much love and attention and I am proud of that.

Oh, yah, the title of this post led me to what I wrote above but more specifically here is what I was referring to: this article on time management for work at home moms was interesting and positive. There are ideas of how to make it work and prioritizing.

(I typed this on my side while breastfeeding Will in bed in the “side-lying” position. It was not easy but I aim to reach out to the world. Hello out there!)

While I was in there, briefly, 2 others strolled in and were disappointed to find that the pizzas were sold out. They too had planned to dine on pizza while watching the debate.

The pizza was good. The debate was, well, interesting.

Please forgive me my sins. I have not blogged in eight days…
I have doubted my writing ability and the quality of my posts that I thought I might write about.
I have doubted that anyone cares or even reads this blog.
I have not reached out to the blogging community to foster dialogue and to see what else is going on out there.
I have held my baby or rested with my baby for far more than I used to.

Wait, that last one sounds like a good one.
I read that the more skin on skin contact you have with your baby the better weight gain they have and the more milk production you have. There are other benefits as well but they escape me at the moment. You can find out more at sites like Dr Sears I think it is a wonderful reason to spend more time with baby and to feel good about it. I have felt like I need to get things done when baby is sleeping but now I have upped the amount of time I hold my sleeping baby in my arms. It feels great.

When I hold baby I can do “one handed typing” but it is slow and frustrating. When I put baby down I tend to do things like make something to eat or laundry. Priorities.

Anyway, a lot has gone on since I last wrote. I foresee some of those topic as being my upcoming blog posts.

As for now, baby is stirring like he means to wake up. I hope you will forgive me as I take my leave.

He began smiling last Friday but has since not done it as much as that first time. We do catch a little smile from time to time though.

Today I called my mom when Will had a cooing session while chilling out on our bed. I just chatted lightly with her while Will talked in his own little language on and off. So sweet. She misses him dearly (as does his other grandma). This weekend my family will reunite in South Dakota for my oldest brother’s wedding. This will be our first travel with Will and on a fairly long 2 flight plane ride. Oh my. He will be just shy of 10 weeks when we leave. (I just had to help myself to a deep breath.) This will be a very short trip. I don’t really feel up to traveling just yet but it is my brother’s wedding so I can’t miss it. It will be nice to see everyone and to have them meet the newest addition to the family.

Well, today he smiled for sure! Such a big grin and so much like his daddy! :D

I was giddy, so happy to be there with him, watching him in his delight.

We were at my OB/GYN for my “2 month visit” when it happened. He was so alert and was checking out all the things on the walls, all of the shadows and lights. So much stimulus. We were at the doctor’s office for about three hours. First there was the wait, then I talked with my doctor, then she sent in a case worker to help me work through some of the things I am going through, then the doctor came back to examine me. When the doctor stepped out to let me don my paper examination skirt I had to put will in the stroller. (I had been holding him the entire visit and nursing him up until that point.) So there we were looking at each other (well mostly I watched him look around at stuff) when all of the sudden BOOM! Will is a smiling little boy cooing away. I scrambled for the camera and fired of shots of my cute little boy with his wide toothless grin.

He had such a good day! And so did I. We both felt very loved and supported.

Ideas to help fund change via Obama:

* have a fundraiser
* invest in Obama even though we can’t afford it because that is an investment in our future.
* (oops, I forgot the third idea I had. It was late and I am sleep deprived… do you, dear reader, have an idea to insert here?)

Then I had another thought. Hmm… what if we took the money from the bike rack we are trying to sell and donate it to Obama’s campaign? Yes! He liked that idea. Wonderful! So, today I re-posted our bike rack to craigslist with the headline: “Bike Rack for Obama”.

Take a look at the posting.

What things do you have that you aren’t using anymore, you know, those things that are taking up valuable space, that you could sell to fund Obama? Join us in aiding and abetting change.

Side note: space clearing is powerful stuff. Try it and watch it change your life for the better.

love,
~Christine

Oh my. I loved what she said. I realized that my longing for a tribe (community) to be with me and love and care for me was not unfounded. Yes, I am a modern woman but I am also a human and I believe that humans have a natural instinct to live as this woman suggested caring for each other, protecting and celebrating their young, and each other.

I feel sad and like I am missing something by not having this rich tribe. My family and friends are scattered about the globe (mostly located in Portland). Also, it seems that in these modern times or, at least in this first world country that our ties with our family are not as strong as they would have been at a time in the past or in another culture.

I am thankful that my mom did come and stay for a week to be there for us. I am also thankful that Billy’s mom came to help and be with us too. Then, about a week and a half ago, my friend Rebecca called me up and asked if she could come by with some homemade soup! Of course! She and her boyfriend came by with not only soup but groceries from Whole Foods! Lots of organic, fresh goodies. She had been traveling to places such a Egypt so was unable to come sooner.

I want to reclaim some of those seemly less and less common values. Friends and family are a treasure to be tended to and like a garden, grow.

I love you my dear family and friends.