MaternityShare

Will and Me August 27, 2008

Will and I had such a lovely morning. We woke, we fed, we bonded, we slept some more. (Now, I did not catch up on my sleep, I just got some. I needed that.)

I feel like the last two days Will and I have been really hitting it off. We are starting to feel comfortable with each other. At least that is what if feels like right now. I think we are both getting more mellow in a way.

One change I noticed in me that has something to do with my part of it is that I have been working on holding space for what Will and I need right now and not so much what other people want for us. I have also gone somewhat inside. Almost like a retreat. I need to honor myself, who I am, and who the mother I want to be is. Its naturally all there already inside. I am just doing a little bit of a better job at nurturing it. I need to. This is how I will unfold and become who I already am. If I am not myself I am nobody. How can a nobody be a good mom, a good partner, a good friend? So, while going inside and focusing more on me (and Will as an extension of me right now) may seem selfish I actually think its selfless.

Well, its 4:40am and I am in my own little world but I suppose that is true no matter what time of day it is especially now that I am in a postpartum period. In blogging and in life I feel both my creativity and my self censorship are not at their fullest or best.

Take care, be well.

~Christine