The postpartum period of having a baby is proving to be a challenge for me. And for my family too because they are a part of me. Right now I am pumping so that Billy can feed baby a bottle so that I can get some sleep. I have to pump before I go to sleep because baby is taking milk I previously pumped. If I don’t pump now my body will think that it does not have to make as much milk because it thinks baby doesn’t need it. Body doesn’t know that baby is taking a bottle. So, I lose about a half hour of prep time, pump time, and clean up time. Precous time. Then there is my mind. Right now it is frustrated at how things are going. Frustrated at not being understood by Billy. Frustrated that I can’t spend these days loving being a mother and loving my adorable little son.

Due to lack of funds we have also cut back in the food department. So, these days, not only do I have less help with preparing most of my meals but I am also back to eating conventionally grown produce and cheap foods in general. My body does not function as well on these types of foods. Are there ways of eating cheaply with easy to prepare meals in an organic and healthy way? I need to feel good and I need to make my baby’s food… I need to make milk.

Next up: I must change these patterns that are happening.