I had my appointment to do the ultrasound to check my cervix length early this morning. My cervix is down to 1.3 cm. Ideally a pregnant woman would have their cervix length be at 3cm or more. As I mentioned in a post a few days ago the last time they checked it (6 weeks ago in the hospital) I was at 2.1 cm.

On the plus side, we also learned that my amniotic fluid levels are good, the baby’s growth is on track, and that he weighs 4lbs, 1oz.

I had to wait for the doctor to receive today’s results from the lab technician. Then after the doctor assessed things she would call me with a her verdict. I was worried they were going to ask us to drive back into the city for more testing, or worse, hospitalization!

Worry, worry, stress. Not good for me, not good for the baby. So, in the mean-time, I took a nap then read up on the topic of positive thinking. I came across an article that I liked called Positive thinking: Practice this stress management skill. I particularly liked the part where they explained ‘common forms of negative and irrational self-talk’. It helped me step back from worry and negative thinking and realize what I was doing. I felt like my perspective was widened and I was able to shift into the space of thinking (more) positively. I realize this will take practice as it is like learning any skill. It is something I have always wanted but now that there is the wee one inside of me along for the ride with little or no choice in the matter I would like him to have a pleasant time without the stress hormones I unleash on him.

The doctor called me in the afternoon and we talked over my situation. We decided that I would continue to keep being conservative and on strict modified bed rest, medication, and hydration for now. I am to call if anything changes. Whew!

I am to get my cervix length rechecked in two weeks. She said that if at that point I had lost half the length I have now she would still be happy because I would then be at 34 weeks and the baby has better chances and I could still make it with that little length to 36 weeks. So, given the circumstances, I would say this is good news. I aim to handle this time gracefully and from a positive standpoint.

I would love to hear what works for you or what inspires you to be positive.