I am 31.5 weeks pregnant and had an appointment with the Obstetrician yesterday. She took another fFN to determine the likelihood of me delivering in the next 7-14 days. It came back positive. This means I am more likely than not to deliver in the next 7-14 days. I got the call about it to give me a heads up this afternoon. I have to go and have a ultrasound on Tuesday morning to check the length of my cervix (which last time they checked about 5.5 weeks ago was already shortened to 2.1cm). All I can do is stay the course: bed rest, Nifedipine, stay hydrated. I would add: keep my stress down.

Another thing that came up yesterday was the question of tenderness in my lower, side belly (mostly on the right). I was asked to set up an ultrasound to check out my appendix and get blood work done to rule out appendicitis. Billy doesn’t think that I have it. I don’t know. I am worried about that tenderness though.

When the doctor (not the one I saw yesterday… remember, I have three Obstetricians) called me today to tell me about the fFN I told her about my aggravating experience of trying to set the ultrasound for ruling out appendicitis (I will spare you the details) to which she replied “I don’t think you have appendicitis”. She suggested to take one stressor out of it all that I should skip this test and basically watch for symptoms at which point if I have the big bad symptoms then I will just go to the hospital and have it out.

So now we are preparing for a preemie. One that will live in a little box at the hospital for a while.

I am visualizing making it to full term anyway. But, I am making sure everything is set up for readiness because I need to do that at some point anyway. This includes preregistering a the hospital and getting my things collected that I need and want to take with me.

For now, I will work on relaxing and being in the moment. Lately I have had an even harder time doing that.